Wrestling

There was one occasion Baba used to get into several moods-

[laughing]

-different moods in those days.

And it was all an expression of his inner spiritual work that he used to do, about which we see our mind can't reach.

We can really have-- cannot conceive of that work which he used to do.

But we could see all the signs and symptoms on his face and the expression.

From that, we could see that he was grossly, uh, occupied in doing some inner work.

And the expressions were in different forms, in different moods.

There was a one time that Baba used to move his finger so much and so fast.

You may have seen very, very times like this, you see.

It was nothing but an expression of his inner work.

Sometimes he used to just, in Manzil-e-Meem on the first floor of the building, he used to just walk, and all of a sudden he used to go near a window and dash his head against a window right in our presences.

And, uh, there are very many such things.

So one day, one day he just got into, uh, some mood, and he called me.

And he says, "Look here.

Now I ask you to wrestle with me." At that time, Baba, you see, was very lean.

And, uh, I thought to myself, "What is this? How can I wrestle with Baba? He is my master.

And how can I use my strength?" I was a young man.

I was very strong at that time.

And I said, "If I use my strength, probably I would throw Baba away in a minute, and it doesn't behove me really to wrestle with Baba." So Baba said, "No, you must obey." So once we gripped each other, I did not use my strength.

Then Baba said, "No, this is not right.

You must use your strength." The second time also, I hesitated to use my strength.

You see, just I-- he grabbed.

He hold me like this.

I held him like this.