Ep 14: Friendship Grief, Birthday Shrooms, & Weeping Willows are NOT GOOD FOR THE HOME

So I'm gonna read a little thing that I wrote down for us, because I feel like you might relate.

Sometimes I feel guilty or bad for having met so many people and been influenced by so many beautiful relationships with folks that I still consider friends, but I haven't been able to invest in it the way I had intended, and I have to constantly grieve that I can only have such a small group of really, really close friends at one time.

And they're constantly changing.

And the rest of the folks I've met or been lovingly influenced by, I may or may not hang out with ever again.

A thousand percent could not relate more.

It's the thing where someone goes, we should get coffee.

There's an...

I know in my heart of hearts, and this is being reductive to that, but I know in my heart of hearts that I am not going to be doing that unless we see each other in this exact sort of scenario where it's at a show or whatever and we can chat then.

I love...

And this is not everybody.

If you've ever asked, and this sounds like everybody's asking me to get coffee or something.

That's not

even it, but it's like, I want to spend more time with you, but I know that I don't have space for that.

Leisure time for a coffee is just not, isn't that wild? Well, it's also, I think we're in a space where you can see on Facebook, you have like 2000 friends.

It's like, there's too many people to constantly be aware of.

And I think that's where a lot of the grief comes from.

Cause like I'm seeing their kids grow up and I'm like, you're just not in my inner circle.

I used to live with you and I still love you and I feel love towards you, but there's just no way I'm going to drive two and a half hours on again, a spare day that is already so precious.

My best childhood friends.

I've looked so much love for it.

There's a lot of grief there.

Yeah.

A lot of

grief.

Oh my God.