Everything was perfect, um, up until my 20-week ultrasound.

I knew from the moment that I saw the positive pregnancy test that I did not want to continue the pregnancy.

I felt my heart sink to, like, the bottom of my stomach, and I- I remember I was just crying.

Crying because I was afraid.

I do think about that pregnancy and think about what my life would have been like if I had added another child to our family at that point, and I'm very glad I made that decision.

I felt so relieved that I could finally move on with my life, that I could finally heal.

I wanted to graduate.

I wanted to study abroad.