So every time I'd have to go to see, like, the therapist or whatever, I'd walk by that, and it's just such a trigger, right? Yeah, 'cause I was there when they died, right? So, you know, it's tough.

I met Tom, it was really on phase two when we were both in Cobra Flight on the same course that we really got to know each other and I really became really good buddies with him.

So I was actually flying when it happened.

A few days before that, they had done a tabletop of a, of a crash and we initially got alerted by tower calling us on guard.

And I turn over to tower frequency and I hear a lot of chatter going on and they say, "Yep, there's been an aircraft crash in the air weapons range." And I say, "Hey, is this exercise or real world?" And they say, "No, it's real world." I take one look at the gas.

There's no way I can go anywhere with, with the gas I have.

So we blast home.

I'm not okay."