When, when you lost your father, is part of the pain coming from inside your own house?

house?This is what's interesting.

When my father passed away, rest in peace to that brother, to that man, I went to St. Louis to see him.

Stage four pancreatic cancer, life was riddled with alcoholism and crack cocaine, and just never quite got his hands around figuring it out.

And, and, and, and I said to him, "I just want you to know I forgive you." And, and I wanted him to know why.

I said, "I forgive you for not being there to protect me, for not giving me the heads-up of what's around the corner." I don't know that he would've been anybody that would've changed my life in business or-

Yeah

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What, what surprised you the most about the public reaction?

Um, I think I surprised myself more than me focusing on the public reaction.

I'm not, I've never been the kind of guy that arrive at, oh, I won or I didn't win, or this is how I feel about myself based on what people are...

I was really, like, just shocked, you know, 'cause I've never done anything, anything like it.

You know what I'm saying?

Mm-hmm

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but I don't know what I don't know about you.