And so I feel like I'm in the process of discovering the palette.

Yeah, that's a great...

I love that.

You know, I was talking with a friend yesterday about that idea of, you know, art as a metaphor and even as athletes, how can we make this art or how can we, you know... expand it i mean more dynamism you're still outside moving but you know instead of sweat pouring in your eyes or you know going for the kom or intervals you're just walking up to a lake and jumping in with your friends and that's like you know just as good and possibly even better um i love that i love those examples all right maybe i'll try to answer now like you know one comparison Okay, you know, a stories or views or constructs, you know, from childhood or the early years, until now, you know, a big shift for me has been the idea of what does it mean to be a man who supports his family? And, you know, I told you, I've always imagined I'm going to be married.

I'm going to have kids.

I'm going to, you know, quote, support my family.

And the story I grew up, excuse me, grew up with and the example I saw was, you know, the man who goes to work and is successful at work and earns money.

But like, what does this even mean?

Um, so what happened next? What happened, what happened after that?

Yeah, I mean, there was that diagnosis, you know, the this is bullshit.

And then, man, I just...

I'm, like, so proud of both of my parents, and they've set such an example for, for me in, you know...

Of course, there was initial anger and, you know, these why, why me, you know? And why-- Of course, I felt that too.

Like, hey, here's a great person who's lived well and, you know, treated people well and had positive impact, and, uh, you know, why, why, why, why? Um, you know, I think, like, really my dad led the way in shifting from, like, that kind of just sort of anger and victim thinking to, like...

I mean, less than a month later, Annie, he was, like, he was making a difference.

Uh-huh