And I wondered how you got to that place where you because I'm sure you had to navigate grief and pain before you got to a place where you're just like, yeah, I can talk about my my dad or anybody else that you have lost in your life with that kind of flatness or ease.

So I have a friend of mine who lost somebody that was very close to her around the same time.

And I watched everyone around her.

be so worried about her that they didn't know how to ask her if she was okay.

Because they were so worried about making her upset that they didn't know how to check in.

And it was something that had happened before my dad had passed away.

And I remember them asking me and going, how's she doing? And I was like, you should ask her how she's doing.

Just be there.

Hmm.

Um, you would have enough time to get it in there.

For PD, we would usually get the script the day before you would start filming that episode.

And if you were featured on that episode, you might get it a couple days earlier to kinda get your head around it, but usually you would get it the day before.

But, you know, you only shoot, on one day you would shoot, like, seven pages, so you'd have a handful of scenes.

And they'll usually let you know which scenes are playing if you don't get the full schedule.

[laughs]

That would give me so much anxiety.

Like, everything seems to just happen so easily, a hit show, leading a show." But I imagine you faced rejection over the course of your career.

Yes, absolutely.

I think every actor has, uh, rejection.

But yeah, I mean, I remember, um, after Revolution got canceled, um, I d- I don't think I worked for a while.

I think it was, like, a good couple years where I think I had maybe booked a couple pilots that, that didn't go, a pilot or something that didn't go.

But, but I wasn't doing much.

I was, I was, I didn't, didn't have any money.

I always end the interview with, what is something you've never said before that you wanna share today?

A hit show, leading a show." But I imagine you faced rejection over the course of your career.

Yes, absolutely.

I think every actor, um, has, uh, rejection.

But yeah, I mean, I remember, um, after Revolution got canceled, um, I d- I don't think I worked for a while.

I think it was like a good couple years where I think I had maybe booked a couple pilots that, that didn't go, a pilot or something that didn't go, but, but I wasn't doing much.

I was, I was, I didn't, didn't have any money.

I was, uh, trying to figure...

I always end the interview with what is something you've never said before that you wanna share today?

What I mean, what did the environment do for your performance? I mean, it was so beautiful.

It was incredible.

Every day was breathtaking and you can't help but feel immersed and fought.

I mean, the character loves nature and goes does everything she can to protect it.

But you can't help but being there, just being awestruck by it all and getting to film with all the animals, horseback riding.

But like a bald eagle right by was incredible.

And how much of Haley Upton do you feel, Tracy, that you brought with you to this role? Yeah.

You know what? Actually, it was more I felt like I had to unknow some stuff that I know because Haley was kicking in doors every day and, you know, knows how to clear a room.