Yeah.

And so those kinda things became less interesting to me, and I wanted to try to figure out what is more interesting and more fun.

And for me, fortunately, so fortunately at Valve, I was able to get into that where I think the first game I worked on as an employee, I, I, I think I'd done Half-Life Episode 1 and 2, and then I did Left 4 Dead 1 and 2, and then Portal.

And Portal 2 was the first game I was an actually an, an employee there.

And, uh, uh, I think, uh, Mike Morasky was doing the music for it, so I got to do most of the ambient stuff.

And there was two other guys that were working on it, David Faisa, and I forget who else was working on that.

But so I got to sort of get into doing the, the cut scene stuff and the, the big cinematic scenes, and the ambience for the, for the different areas.

Yeah.

work?

You know, I think probably I was shocked when I started learning this as a young kid.

My grandfather was really big on teaching us all how to protect ourselves.

Every time I learned anything, and this is true throughout the military, I noticed that when it got into something that was very specific and potentially dangerous or lethal, the instruction got really calm and we learned everything extremely slow and accurate and correctness was the most important thing rather than velocity and speed.

And that stayed true throughout just about everything I've ever learned when it came, you know, no matter how complex a skill set.

And what was amazing was when you saw books, books that came out like years ago, like the talent code in groups like that, that They started talking about deep learning and how people excelled and how the best of the best have applied this.

Well, we were naturally applying it back in the military, you know, 30 years ago and we didn't call it deep practice during that time.

And that's

trauma.

Yeah, it's that annoying person who's just, he's being a little belligerent, but you have the opportunity to leave or you have the opportunity to just fend them off and leave the area, even though your ego might be hurt, you know, or something like that.

Asocial is when it's devoid of communication.

you have somebody coming in to, obviously it's a predator that's coming into your life.

And what's interesting about that is oftentimes they'll use your social, skills against you they will they will sit there and make you feel guilty because maybe you're judging them or you're you're jumping to a conclusion the story i was telling you earlier of my friend's wife um you know she's coming into a parking lot it's about 10 o'clock at night she'd been studying with her two other graduate student friends they had parked on the first floor she had parked on the third floor they offered they said hey we'll take you up to the third floor drop you off your car she said oh please i don't want you to feel that way As she's saying that, she's seeing out of a corner of her eye this guy who looked a little sketchy to her.

And she even said to me, she said, you know, I felt like I was judging him.

I felt like I was maybe, I felt fearful because he looked kind of like a street person or homeless.

It's like, wow, I thought

And then I want to go into situational awareness.

We were talking about how people that really love what they do love the foundational aspects the basics on it and i you know i got into because you know i had a long history of learning martial arts my grandfather was very influential in getting me to learn how to protect myself and that was great and then i went through the military and then it was after 9 11. it was actually i had a course two days before 9 11 here and it was right down by the financial district and my the place where we've been training on the 11th was destroyed.

It was there, three of my guys were in the building, they got out but it was a seminal event for me and that's when I realized that it is fantastic training military law enforcement and I love to hear that these guys, you know, do well but I expect them to do well.

That's their job, that's where they volunteered.

What's hard is when, you know, you have people who are living great lives, they're great people and then violence comes in their life and I realized a lot of it was because they just weren't looking at things correctly.

They weren't taught.

They didn't have any skill sets for this.

Yeah.