Do you feel like the, the, the Christian path, the Catholic path, the Jewish path, the Buddhist path, uh, the Hindu path, do you feel it's all pointing to the same thing, and what is that thing?

Yes.

Absolutely.

The...

Here's what I believe in the most clear way I could say it.

Everybody's praying to the same cons- the same entity.

Right? And I use entity very loosely, but it's a universal guiding force.

H- How, h- how do, how do you know what you want?

Dude, that's most

people.

Subject to decision fatigue and then living, I read a statistic that said 85% of people are caught in the guilt shame loop.

You know, map of consciousness, people that were guilt and shame are at the bottom, which we've, you know, people who have been addicted to things and made a lot of mistakes I know I have lived in.

Bro, guilt, shame, then you do something to make yourself feel a little bit better in the moment and then you aren't proud of yourself and it's like, you're in this low vibrational state.

It's very hard to build a beautiful life in guilt and shame that's right once you get up even anger is better than guilt and shame apathy anger at least you're moving up the chain but then you get to this acceptance and this love and this enlightenment which we're trying to go towards yeah that's where i was trying to go man and dude let's talk about the running for a minute in the foreign legion brother I showed up and dude, it is minimum five miles a day.

So it's five miles, five days a week, pretty much every fucking day.

So how did you end up wrapping up the career in the French Foreign Legion? How does someone get out of there?

You got notification that they were taking your, you know, they're taking your Trident and then what?

So I'll give you the quick 30,000-foot overview.

I get my trident pulled after a bunch of arrests and bringing heat on myself.

I process out.

I go to jail again in Idaho, serve my time, clean up the civilian side, walk into a good civilian job, living wrong, stacking bad habits immediately, alcohol, Adderall, Xanax, fentanyl every day, and still being successful and still jacked.

Right? And hot girlfriend living by the beach, making money.

So that's why I could lie to myself and say I was fine.

That's paradigm

When you left the SEAL teams, how'd you deal with it? I thought I dealt

with it great.

But in retrospect, the proof was in the pudding.

I didn't give myself time to process it because I had to go to jail for a few weeks.

And I was coming out of jail, signing my DD-214 pretty much.

And, you know, and it was getting off probation.

It wasn't like, hey, you get sentenced.

Yes.

[laughs]

Right? So yeah, man, the 30,000 foot overview, yeah, decent childhood, sports, had some trouble in my youth.

It was difficult to get into the military just from legal, legal perspective and some tattoos and things, but had to go to jail after college, uh, to kind of clean up some stuff and, but I got into the Navy, went through SEAL training, was at SEAL Team Seven, sniper, JTAC, Advent Laden Specialist, which was, like, low profile, uh, low visibility operations.

Deployed to Iraq, Yemen.

Had some legal troubles in the SE- SEAL teams that ended up kind of culminating after about seven years I was there.

Had to go back to jail, do some time.

I got kicked out for performance enhancing drugs, technically, right? Uh, uh, that, that's what I got kicked out for.

... how do you frame getting back on the path when you step off, before you start going back to your old habits?