A ba'al teshuva, married a baal teshuva, start a family, and this is what my life is gonna be now for the duration? This is the pain that's gonna be in the center of my life?" How did you react religiously to what you were being handed?

So first, it was a complete shock.

For some time, I was in this shock, 'cause it was like from having a beautiful life, and the irony is that we often looked at each other and said, "It is too good to be true." We built this beautiful life.

We were just so happy to be together, and we, and our- and raising a beautiful kan anar.

We have four beautiful girls.

And I just remember it was like going from this beautiful tranquil life to our life being turned upside down.

And I remember just, um, this shock, um, because also, Parkinson's is not something that you expect at such a young age.

But what's your own relationship to, like, taking pictures of your kids with your husband right now?

Wow.

We have to...

You know, your education comes first.

So that is when I decided to, you know, obviously now it's, life is becoming more serious.

And um, I was told I would make a great lawyer because I was always able to see different perspectives, and because I was able to...

I was a mediator.

Oh, they always saw me as a mediator, so people were like, "Wow, she can really defend both sides.

Mm

That

was my only option.

I have to have the answers.

So that was the time where I had to go into like in England, it's between being a barrister and solicitor.

And, you know, so I had to really start making those choices.

And I knew that I was at the pivotal stage there.

I knew that if I don't learn about this now, I will never have the opportunity to do that because you get so immersed in, you know, in the career trajectory you're in and it's really hard to get out of it.

lot a lot in terms of the physical a lot in terms of the emotional she carries the spiritual weight of the home often right like she's carrying a lot and what you're saying is just because you can it doesn't mean you should yes so how do you come and i like your now your metaphor with the door that was really really powerful but how do you come to understand what that should means