going to get a violin out there no I hate

no but see the the poor I don't do the poor me I do the I use my life and experiences and I push myself so to do the awards it was a personal achievement for me so I was like you have you know even just getting up on that stage in Spain I was shaking like a leaf before on it and when I went up I was like I love this this is amazing because I'm used to doing catwalk I'm used to being behind a camera posing I've been posing all my life apparently like every picture even if it was like two mums like that you're like Like every picture.

So I'm used to that.

And when you're like that though, you get a lot of, oh my gosh, she loves herself.

And you're like, no, that's just my, that's what I've been brought up as a teenager.

And that's just who I am.

But to go to the awards from the first year I went, when I was a wee blonde and, you know, I met Xander Nation and they were like brilliant.

okay