you want to do a turn on or a make out on the land? Okay,

what was the land like? The land.

Wow.

I just felt like it was like, I mean, I think cinematically.

So I was like, this feels like a Manson documentary.

This feels like Brian Jonestown Massacre.

I was just thinking, I was scared.

Tell me about your therapy and your healing and why you decided to write a show.

Yeah.

Here.

So I, so, so my trip was that I had never seen a woman come or orgasm.

Like I didn't know what that looked like because as a woman in popular culture and in movies, right? Like we're, they usually cut that scene.

And this is, I'm talking about me in my generation growing up.

Now we have access to, you know, female porn.

We have lots of female gays, but.

And what was that like for you? Was it a good experience?

Hmm

... "Hey, I actually need some space.

Like, I, I just met you." And I was really clear around my boundaries, but it actually, that person was like, "Oh, I'm n- no longer interested." And I was like, "Great, then that tells me something." Then that's, I was a healthy communicator.

That wasn't right for them, so I stopped.

But that, but then that, when, so when we went into, into lockdown, I was coming off of a lot of, of that experience, of that recent dating experience, of, of One Taste, you know, all these things.

And I was just like, "Okay, I'm gonna, you know, just, just be in my own, be in my own space and sort this out." And, you know, I was in therapy.

And, um, I was still attracted to people.

Mm-hmm.

Mm

... physically.

Like, I didn't wanna buy in, although I was doing all of the wrong things.

Like, I was living with them.

I was, you know, connecting with people.

I was dating people in, in this world, and so it's like, oh, I kinda don't vibe with some of these teachings.

But also, like, I wanted the community element, which is why I kept, you know, staying.

Yeah.