Has anybody explained to you why that was?

Yes, it's very, very involved.

I mean, people that are assaulted, one, there's self-sabotage that happens.

Two, so, so even if I hadn't had a brain injury, it's enough ...

Post-traumatic stress changes the, the, the, um, brain structure, you know, and the chemicals in the brain.

I've talked to other survivors and they've said to me also, they, their brain changed.

But in addition, I also was beat up.

Explain.