Dazu kommt diese Angst, ihre Wohnung und alles, was sie hat, zu verlieren und auch Patrick zu verlieren.

Ich hatte diese Grundpanik und der hat auch halt mit dieser Angst gespielt und hat auch dann immer so gesagt so: "Wenn das jetzt nicht passiert, dann kommen die halt finden und dann hast du eh dein Leben versaut." So nach dem Motto.

Und dann war es wirklich so, dass auf mich eingeredet wurde und san-- gesagt wurde: "Hey, denk dran, du bist die einzige Frau, die das durchzieht.

Nur du bist die, die diese Power dazu hat und die Kraft hat.

Ich will sonst keine andere Frau und ich weiß auch, dass ich für dich der Einzige bin.

Deswegen musst du jetzt an uns glauben und es geht auch nicht lange.

Du musst auch nichts tun.

Sie grenzt sich innerlich von den anderen Frauen ab.

That was a real learning moment for me, the idea that going out to dinner with us could be hard.

It was.

I stopped doing those things for a long time.

It's been really hard for me to get back out there.

I don't think that I can ever trust anybody.

I don't think that I could ever fully be confident that someone wasn't misleading me or manipulating me, because I was so sure that he was a good person and that he loved me.

How can I ever get to the point where I truly don't fear that?

Through this work in therapy, she's breaking patterns, sitting with her pain, putting herself first.

Like the other survivors, Saskia's effort to rebuild her life is ongoing.

One thing that was so hard for me is that this was seven years of my life where I thought that I had a wonderful husband and a wonderful family, and I didn't know what to do with those seven years of memories.

We had to not only deal with being raped, but also having our whole lives as we knew them fall apart.

I wouldn't wish that on anybody, but I think it allows us to kind of build back up and take some of our control back.

But I think a necessary part is to gain more confidence, be more aware of our needs and our wants, right? I know I've learned that you do have to be a little bit selfish in life just to survive.

I always thought that was a bad word, being selfish, but I think being selfless, you know, really enabled me to be taken advantage of.

She rushed to report Mike, her abuser, the moment she realized what was happening.

But I think back, and I, if I hadMy wits about me.

She was ready in her bones to confront him.

I told him I needed to talk to him.

I had his laptop, and I put it under my pillow in the bed, and I was sitting on it so that he didn't know where it was, and so that he couldn't try to take it.

I told him what I had seen the night before, and immediately the mask came off.

His face totally changed.

She never even knew this photo was taken, and by Mike, the man she trusted more than anyone.

I said, "How could you do this to me? How could you show people my body?" And he said, "Well, I guess I thought it was sexy." I said, "Did you ever love me?" And he just stayed silent.

It was just no answer.