What did you mean by that, and how did you find your way to Islam in China?

I feel like that, that I have always been living in my masculine energy.

I think at about 30 years old, um...

For me, I think masculine energy, um, not only belongs to men, where feminine energy just only belongs to women.

I think every human being has both sides, and the balance depends on many factors, many things like your childhood, your, um, culture, your family, and your life experience.

For me, living in my masculine energy, um, was not a choice.

It was survival.

Okay, now that you ended up at this masjid, what happened?