god

Um, I feel like part of my answer to this question is something that I tell students often when I teach, um, when it comes to like hearing no a lot and getting rejected from things or things that you are so sure you're going to book and then it doesn't work out and you're like, well, what the, why did I do all of that then? Um, that i that like this is all of this is my job it's not my life all of the most important things i think are the things that happen in between getting married or whatever um and i feel like i've had so many so many moments of this thing didn't work out or oh i didn't book or what am i going to do with all this time that it actually gave me the ability to like be at home if I needed to be at home or go to this wedding or, you know, God forbid, like have the time to like go to this funeral that I need to go to.

Like, I think people, what people don't understand about this business is that we have to miss out on so many things all the time.

Like the once in a lifetime that will never happen again.

And I missed it.

And so I've, I've tried to in all of these in-between times to take advantage of the time that I have, but also think about the things that, oh, I guess if I had booked that, I wouldn't have been able to be at home for this, and I wouldn't have been able to do this thing.

I don't remember what I didn't book or what didn't work out or something.

Please, please just explain.