Yeah.

I was like, God, if this is, I see the gap, I see what you're doing, but I don't want this to be my own desires, my own flesh, like take it away if it's not from you.

Because one, I can't fulfill that without you doing it through me.

Right.

Yeah.

I'm at my I felt at that time, just like you said, that overwhelmed, like, am I really going to add more when I'm already feeling the weight of what's already here? So I'm like, if there's more coming, this isn't something that I want to take on that could crush me.

I need it to be something that you're calling me to because then you will provide me everything I need to be able to walk through it.

That you don't let your flesh stop you.