I always, I always really feel for anyone who got a diagnosis in pregnancy because I feel like it must take the edge off being able to just relax and enjoy being pregnant.

Yeah, definitely.

You know, finding out I was pregnant was a surprise in the first place, so it was a, it was a lovely surprise 'cause I don't mind sharing I am, um, a mum in my 40s, and I did get pregnant in my 40s.

That was a lovely surprise.

So you go through that whole, oh, you wanna get to that first, through that first three months and just know that everything's okay.

And then you get to that scan, and it's like, oh gosh, no, it's... they're saying it's not okay.

So that was really, really disheartening because you're just thinking of the size of a fetus, which we still don't really know the size of a fetus at that age, and you're just thinking, "How do you know there's a hole in that tiny, tiny little living organism's heart?" It's just like I didn't wanna believe it, so I kind of, I kinda was in denial for a bit.

Yeah