I mean, how, where were you at in your healing at like kind of throughout this from the addiction

side? Thanks for asking that.

Cause yeah, I don't want it to seem like, yeah, I confessed and everything was good, you know? Um, I did recovery programs.

I did a couple and met with some guys.

I think I was working on it, but also still in that bubble of working on it myself.

Yeah, I had a lot of the same struggles as Jessica as far as I continued to not only have relapses at times, but then hide those relapses, you know, and then lie to Jessica about it, you know.

And my beliefs went back to like, OK, like as long as she doesn't know, then then it's not a problem.

Because you start to forget, apparently, as you age, is what we're learning.