I, I get that

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but what, what I had as an outlet for my whole life, whole adult life and, you know, even like teens and things like that, it was exercise and, and how I ate.

And most would think that's healthy, but when you almost-- when you take anything to an unhealthy level, it, it no longer does serve a, a healthy purpose.

And so I was not eating enough, and I was working out too much, and it was a great way to cope.

I'd feel better, but it, it wasn't healthy.

And, and ultimately what I learned is like, that was me internalizing all that I was feeling.

Yeah