You know what

I mean? Because I wasn't fucking worried about infections or getting injured or any of that crack, which on every other production I've been on has happened.

Like it just kind of became normal for me before my second amputation to end up in hospital for two or three weeks when we were done filming.

Cause I was just had infections and ulcers and yeah, it was, it took, it's like my career definitely has taken its toll, but now I'm at the point where I'm like, I represent a certain community obviously on the show, but I'm like, you don't get to say that this show is inclusive or that this show has representation and then not give me what I need to be able to film, you know? So it's gotten to that point now with, with me where I'm able to stick to two fingers up and be like, no, I actually, I don't know.

It's not safe for me to be here.

I'm going home.

Sorry.

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