It can be all over the place.

Okay.

I'll actually, I'll share both.

I'll actually share both.

So back in, I'd say it was 2019, when this entire shift in brain surgery and radiation treatment and a dissolving marriage was all happening, I actually remember thinking, oh, I'll get through this tumor thing and I'll figure it out.

I'm healthy.

I have a strong mindset.

You want to share a couple of really, really heavy stuff that happened there?

were you like? Just curious, what kind of like like what was what were you feeling or what was what were the signs or that what was changing?

Yeah, it started after an Ironman race I did in Arizona about...

My friend asked me to ride like, I think it was like 500 miles around Oregon.

And I was like, heck yeah, I'm in.

And that was like after my Ironman race.

It was about seven months later.

And in that seven month time, I put on like 40 pounds and I couldn't stop eating though.

So at what point then do you finally get a real diagnosis?

what happened once you got diagnosed?

Well, I had just, um, completed another Ironman race, um, and it, and it was...

I barely got through it.

Uh, and, um, and again, I, I, I think I fired a couple coaches [laughs] into this.

And, and so I barely got through it, and, um, but I wasn't recovering.

I couldn't get off the couch.

Um, I, I'm very proactive in what's going on in my body, so I started researching things like adrenal fatigue and looking at the HPA axis, and I would talk to other, um, people in the fitness industry.

[laughs] What happened?