Yeah.

And I see Brula for the first time, and it's a stark contrast.

Because after a week of downtime where we actually got to properly rest, and I got to stuff my face full of good food and w- and w- working out and such, I, uh...

You know, when, when we all first regrouped- I looked pretty bad.

I was the underweight one.

I was kind of scrawny, and now I've, I've had time on the road and time to recover, and if anything, I'm looking healthier than ever I think compared to what it was like when we started.

So as I, as I walk into the room and stand up straight, I'm kind of looking much better, and that just kinda drives a knife into me a little bit as I see Brula like this, and I realize that as I've gotten much better, she's looking worse.

I don't see any way in which this saves Brula.