yeah

how do i how do i move forward with it am i doing the right things as a father for my kids and for my wife you know and then just death you know the pain of death losing my losing my dad yeah losing my my grandfather my grandmother you know missing those memories having I was just talking to my cousin today, you know shot to him y'all in Vegas trying to get his life right, you know, so we were just talking about just being on the porch and just laughing in the day back in the day and just barbecues and birthdays, and I remember so much from that house.

It was painful for me for them, for it to be gone right now.

That pain is still there, so I'm trying to figure out how to I can

yeah, yeah,

yeah.

You don't you don't want it.

OK, cool.

I was like, what? You played in Midnight Basketball? What did that program do for you?

Really, man, shout out to the organizers for that, the Midnight League.

That was my first adult league as a 15-year-old kid, so I've been playing with adults all my life, but that was an opportunity for me to see the physicality, the dedication.

Some games would be at... 11 o'clock, 10 o'clock, I still got to get up and go to school in the morning.

So it was a real experience for me that it just developed me mentally, made me strong, made me not give up, and let me know that anybody that steps in front of me, it's going to be a problem.

It's going to be a problem.

Yeah, it's going to be a problem.

When I told you what was going on tonight, what came to mind for you, man? Man, I

question, just not to cut everybody off, but do we feel a woman can lead? No,

no, no.

Okay, look.

So since I've been married, been married 20 years in September.

Yeah.

It's not to say that the woman can't lead.

What it's saying is that in a relationship, you got to set the tone.

It's a lot of men that don't know how to