Yep, keep going

... um, and so I know clearly who I am, like, and am learning a lot more about my design, and I have a really clear vision of where I am going, where I wanna go.

So my issue is not so much clarity.

It's that when I feel under pressure, I revert automatically to my old pattern of proving my worth through doing.

So I have two things I'd like to explore.

One is I wanna understand how I can make my new identity my default, not a conscious decision that I'm having to make all the time.

Um, and then I also want to talk through, I know that my nervous system is still significantly dysregulated from quite a sustained period of lots of different difficulties.

What did that look like? What did it sound like? What was going on?