Were you doing the sums in your head then? Like, did you think you could still make it? Yeah, yeah,

100%.

Well, that's why I started pushing.

I was like, well, you know, start doing 24 hours a day.

So I...

I would do 12 hours and then I'd lie to myself and say, you've just got 12 hours to do.

But I remember looking around thinking, is it just me? Or is it this bad or is it just me? And I think it was a mixture.

so

Did you feel like a badass once you'd done it? You're like, okay, I just did this thing.

I think it took me a while to feel that way because you get in and I think my first trip, one person met me at the end who worked for the company who has the role of South Pole manager, which is a pretty cool title to have.

And don't get me wrong, it's amazing, right? But there's also a tiny bit of an anticlimax.

So I remember feeling more emotional the day before thinking about it, like thinking about what that moment means as... a British Punjabi woman, as a British Indian woman, as somebody who, who didn't know anything about this, didn't believe in herself, all of those things that, that was emotional.

And then when I got there and it would have been about half two, half three in the morning, 24 hours of daylight.

So it's still light.

Um, I think I was like, okay, cool.

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