have pushed extra,

I would have.

No, mine was between the ears, Jane.

It was a really simple equation for me, and two or threefold.

One, I knew my family was dependent on me, just in terms of me and my attitude, so I was determined to show the way in that regard.

Um, and probably that extended to friends as well, that, um, I knew that I, I knew I needed my network more than ever.

And I also knew that, um, Why would they ring me if I was going to be shitty and grumpy on the other end of the phone? And if and when they visited, so I made a real conscious effort to be upbeat and just I don't know, I've always accepted, I've been honest with what's going on with me.

have time for a long one.