Mm-hmm

... and get to be front and center, first row, you know, the ticket that everybody wants to the party o- of a lifetime, I felt like, I felt so humbled, and I felt yet so darn grateful because I had so much fun.

I didn't realize I was gonna have the kind of fun that I had tonight, and it was, it was beautiful.

And I've known Lionel for half my life.

Okay

...

in those areas so that it becomes second nature.

And, like, even when I would work with Michael or, and Janet, it was consistency with rehearsals.

Right.

And I remember it when I was done with the dancers audition.

I would go outside and get coffee from Dunkin' Donuts on little breaks.

And not only was there a models call, so I had to see from Elite and Ford, and there was another big, big modeling agency.

I can't think of the name right now.

But after that, I had to audition open call.

Mm-hmm.

Sure.

Wow.

And so I knew since I was young that I create, I could see entire productions like full blown, like in a Polaroid picture.

And I would wake myself up and I would start writing notes and talking into my tape recorder and, videotaping myself like in a drunken slumber, five, six.

That's how I would create because I could see things.

And I realized I can be a choreographer.

It doesn't mean I have to do that, but I know exactly how it's supposed to look.

And God forbid, God forbid.

yeah.

You know, he would tell us if he disliked you.

Oh, I think, no, what I've read is Simon thinks that there's sexual tension between us.

That really just touched me.

Of course he does.

I don't know what dream he is having.

I seriously don't know.

You know,

there were plenty of times that both myself and Randy Jackson would completely disagree, but, you know, it's just, it's the way he feels.