this is the void?

Yeah, 'cause when I, when I lost my mom, I thought, "Okay, like what happens with me?" Because like we're seven kids, but honestly, like my mom and I had such a, a special bond.

I think it's because of the way I grew up and being her only gay child.

She was always worried about me, so I felt lost.

I felt like, I don't know how I'm supposed to keep moving when this one person who meant the world to me, who I would talk all the time with, isn't here.

But I think like the signs that my mom sends me, like really weird, I see it, um, I see it.

It's a beautiful thing.

[laughs]