It's

hard because, well, first off, because half of the cast was people from 41.

So that sucked because everybody was from that season and it's the one season that I'm not on.

And then the other half of the people were people from USA too.

Another show that I was absolutely not on.

I went into this season... automatically being like i'm fucked and i'm not someone that's gonna kiss ass just to be fake and kiss ass i'm gonna make friends and i'm gonna get to know people and like i'm gonna make new allies as time goes on but like i went into that already having the least amount of allies like somebody like a michelle is lucky because michelle had people she has not only people that come from her original show which is survivor they all stick together She's been on this show for six different seasons or I think it's six seasons.

She has all the allies from there.

So is he just messy or calculated?

Got it

... like, we're headed to go get massages.

I'm sitting by myself.

I start to cry 'cause I'm a, I'm an emotional little bitch, and I'm just sitting in my feelings.

The songs are playing, and I'm sad on the bus.

And I'm reminiscing on a bunch of bullshit, and just, like, just in my, in my head, right? You know what I mean? And I know nothing about what's going on in anyone else's mind in, other than mine in that moment.

I was crying, and that was it.

Okay.