You said this is not something that you were able to metabolize in the moment, but that the years that have churned through you is also something that needs to be discussed because it does take a lot of physical metabolizing to even get to the point you're at now.

Yeah, absolutely.

And I think it's so traumatic.

First of all, I mean, the...

The diagnosis, but my son spoke, you know, he hit all of his milestones and then he had a massive regression like overnight.

So that was a loss in itself that we don't often have time to process.

We're just going in go mode.

So continue.

I mean how old is he about 18 months

he was 19 months um 18 I remember we were late for his um 18 month appointment because it got a cold or something and we went in at 19 months and um The doctor really wanted to catch him up.

So there were five of the jabs all at once, which is nine viruses.

So I had a terrible pit in my stomach.

And I remember really specifically saying, this seems really excessive.

I don't know how I feel about this.

And I was just met with... intimidation, yelling.

know, Caleb ended up

But

during the process, I recognized the enormity of what was happening with families.

And I said, I have to help other families.

So House of Hope, I mean, last year we helped 62 families access supports that they couldn't get, you know, whether it was representation in PPT meetings, teaching them how to advocate.

So, you know, that's a whole nother component.

I would say that the house is just a very small group.

part of House of Hope's larger vision.

Like, is this only, only a Connecticut? No.