Yeah.

yeah so we had this oh I can picture it now I don't know what was going on in my dad's mind when he thought you know interior design obviously was not his thing but it's a different time Natalie as well big 90s cream striped purple floral sofa you've still got it yeah yeah So I sat down.

He was on the armchair.

I was on the big sofa.

We're just sat, like, staring at each other.

And he said, so you've been asking a lot of questions about how your mum died.

So I think it's time we had a chat.

There's lots of years before him I didn't know.