Explain or elaborate.

So I needed time to do the EMDR and the trauma counseling and to get to a point where I could not just forgive my 15-year-old self for staying in that relationship so that I could experience a second rape.

But to actually get to a point where I could say I was grateful to my 15-year-old self for doing what she did to survive both that 15-year-old and 17-year-old experience.

I did the best that I could with the tools that I had at that time.

But I needed time to do the hard emotional lifting of the trauma counseling.

I had tried EMDR on two other occasions and bailed because it's really hard.

It's hard work.

And, you know, things that you would have drank out in the past, what did you do instead?