and at such a young age at 17 and you feel an intense emotion for another human being and you say that he was scared did that feeling frighten you did you lay awake um just percolating on that feeling like how did you comprehend that at such a young age as a 17 year old it

for me it was like oh my god i must fatal attraction obsessed, you know, it, because I didn't care how we were in each other's lives.

I just knew we had to be in each other's lives in whatever form.

Um, and our friendship was so strong that, uh, I got engaged and got married first.

He got engaged and I was the first person he called.

He had me meet him at the jewelers to make sure the ring, you know, even knowing how I felt about him, because I had professed my love to him more than once.

And he was like, we can't, we're young.

Have you since spoken about the fear that he had? Was he thinking about the future in such a loving way that your friendship meant so much to him and not wanting to mess that up? Do you believe that there was sleepless nights that he spent lying awake questioning that? What if we did try this or what if this did fail? He had the 10-year