you

had.

Oh, sky high.

Very much about do not get close.

My girlfriends would say if I went out to a bar, I had F off written across my forehead.

But where did that come from? I think hurt, you know, early, early young relationships with careless boys, you know, in the eighties and nineties who didn't know better.

I think I can say that now.

Yes.

I was 39 when I met Justin.

Oh, another similarity.

Yes, carry on.

I was 39.

And I had retrained as a dating coach.

So this was something that, so I'd been doing the psychology and found that so often the conversations that I was having with people, particularly in the corporate world where I was doing a lot of my work, just naturally turned into conversations about dating.

You know, I remember I was doing a lot of training of people in one of the big professional services firms and talking to people who were essentially accountants about how to have the more interpersonal skills like sales and negotiations and that sort of thing.

And he said, yeah, okay, right, whatever.

You're still left with the feelings of being a mother for ages afterwards.

That's right.

That's right.

And you have the physicality as well.

And then, you know, we did the first round of IVF.

They put two eggs in because I was older.

They said, we really need to make the most of this.

Yeah.