Gosh.

And this child unfortunately...

You know, she had to give birth to this child that had, that was already passed.

Well anyway, her grandmother had seen this.

She saw this deep pain that her granddaughter was in, and she came through and said, "I helped my, my granddaughter get pregnant.

This pregnancy is gonna be okay.

She's gonna be fine.

[laughs]

But for people listening, can you explain about bad, quote unquote, bad motivators?

Yeah, you know, the one that jumps out of, you know, jumps like to the front of my mind is, you know, training off resentment.

And, you know, I had some experience with this early on with my weightlifting career.

Anyone that doesn't know, you know, my backstory with my Olympic weightlifting, I actually broke my back in two spots.

I broke my L5, you know, so that, you know, Took me out of weightlifting for a while, four months in a full, hard torso brace.

And then after that, realized that the torso brace didn't fix anything.

I had to receive surgery.

Explore your relationship with failure, Matt.

So from your perspective, what happened?

No, it was, it was, no i i don't look at it like that like there was zero like bad feelings it it was like a happy to see him go like happy like i'm gonna miss him um i'm glad that we had the time that we had but like at the same time it's like i'm i'm a huge believer in that like you should work with other coaches you should you know get those perspectives as you go through like every like through weightlifting i did that like And it wasn't that I was leaving coaches cause like, I didn't like them.

It was just like, no.

Okay.

Like, I think it's just time to move on, like to, you know, to somebody else.

And, uh, the timing one, like if there are any regrets from like competition career, coaching career, any of that, it's, it would be, I didn't realize the impact that I, that my knee surgery had on me.

like you don't, you don't know that you're depressed when you are depressed.

i was