So tell me about both, you know, those journeys with those labels that you've used.

Well, this is all in retrospect now, right? Like, since I have stopped drinking and I've become more self-aware, I now realize that fun Mary was born out of necessity from a high school girl who was super insecure, um, who wanted to fit in with the in crowd and, um, really felt so self-conscious that I, I couldn't do that until I had my first Bacardi and Coke.

And that just was like it calmed my nerves, it lowered my inhibitions, it made me take risks socially.

And I developed this new persona of fun Mary, and I could laugh easily and flirt and make conversation.

I wasn't self-conscious at all.

I kinda got outta my head, right? Like, people talk about food noise.

Well, I just had a lotta noise.

What, what about telling your family?