[gentle music]

So I was standing there in a dark room.

It was early morning.

I...

My head was just really hurting that morning from the evening before, and I had a particularly f- particular feeling of just emptiness.

And as I went to the sink and kind of splashed some water on my face, I looked up and seeing my reflection, I thought, "How in the world have I gotten to this place? Who have I become? Whose have I become?" And when I first went to college, I came from a, a pretty stubborn Catholic family.

We always went to mass and we're forever gonna be Catholic.