And it might not be something that you want to do in that moment, but look what you get from sustained work.

Absolutely.

And I didn't, it took me a while to realize, but what was happening in my disease, and even prior to when things were very, very bad in my disease, was I was comfortable- In certain behaviors and certain spaces and certain ways of thinking, right? I was comfortable in that for very long, and then it became an absolute addiction and a habit to numb out those feelings that I, you know, was uncomfortable with, uh, you know, with, with alcohol.

And so coming into sobriety, having that spiritual awakening of, oh, I have got to...

If I want a different experience, I have got to do things differently.

And that was a suggestion from my sponsor at the time, to treat something like a service commitment until it did not feel like one.

I think that she just knew.

Mm-hmm.