Okay.

When I have time, when I'm with Daniel, while he doesn't walk the earth anymore, he's very present, and his energy still sort of like blindsides me.

Yeah.

And I'll talk to him and I just like, like, I need you now.

Why aren't you here? Or help me now.

I resolved, I accept, what I can't accept as his mom is I couldn't save him.

Like, I don't know that that could ever go away because I don't, I never felt that, um, You know, people would say, oh, you mustn't feel guilt.

It was a rainy day.