Absolutely not true.

Well, that's how I felt as an 18-year-old, I suppose.

And so I wanted to do opera, but I didn't have an agent.

And it's really, it's kind of impossible to do opera if you don't have an agent.

Not completely, but I did actually, I had had a major lead role that I was very happy about.

But it wasn't, most of my gigs were oratorio, which was very stressful for me because you... barely rehearse like you have one or two rehearsals and then you have to go um and i had nothing to sort of take my mind off you know when you when you can uh be in character for me at least it helps a lot because then i'm not so self-conscious anymore about my singing etc i just like i go tell the story and when i'm with my score and i'm singing my little goddess grand song and it feels much harder not to be very conscious about all the notes and especially when you've had few rehearsals and it's all new people so Lots of oratory and lots of early music as well.

And I always felt like I was super frustrated with my voice.

maybe no maybe it's actually it's um hopeless