What were some of the like kind of lasting effects for you with purity culture?

Well, I had not, I, when I was 16 and a half, I had still never hooked up with anyone.

And then, but I started hanging out with really like, there was such a discrepancy in me.

Like I really did have a fine childhood, but I was so like curious about troubling things.

So I started hanging out with these guys and people who were like in their early twenties, if I'm remembering that correctly, when I was like 16 and one night they drugged me and then they, took my virginity.

Uh, and I don't remember any of it, but apparently like other people were recording it, but then they had to delete it because I was under age.

And after it happened, I didn't tell anyone.

It changes

Thanks, y'all.

[upbeat country music] Mama says I think too much, my existential mind.

I'd rather question everything than be a pious wife.

I believe in the country we were supposed to be, before the swine took the pearls.

I'm just a mirror for the glory that they stole from me.

It's a cold, cruel world for the American girl.

The American girl.

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