Yeah

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Um, so I remember a month before I had my daughter, I wrote a one-word journal entry.

It was just, "I feel so lonely." And I was so sick.

I could barely make it through the pregnancy without vomiting.

And then two days after I brought my daughter home from the hospital, I was taking a nap on the couch, and I just slipped into this nap, which took me into this void, and I became completely paralyzed to the point where I could no longer breathe.

And in that moment, in the surrender of saying, "Okay, I'm must be dying," it was just this huge white light, you know, that everyone talks about, the nothingness and the everything all at once.

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