One of Kelsey's most meaningful orgasms took place about a year ago.

And I was going through a lot of really big life changes, and a lot of things were sort of falling apart, but the things that needed to fall apart.

And I had just ended a really deep friendship and moved out of our house, and was very sad about that and very, like, distressed.

My partner was, like, really there for me through that whole time.

I don't know, it was also, like, a period of time where I'd been going to therapy and doing a lot of work healing sexual trauma and being more present in my body again.

Yeah.

But I mean, it was so lovely that he stopped, you know, and didn't pressure me, and I think that for me is something that is really huge in my life 'cause I've had so much of that, like, pressuring.

And so, I don't know, it was, like, another layer of safety for us.

[laughs]

I mean, if I don't know the landing was a dead safe landing, our pilot's usually better than that.

[laughs] But yeah, so that was part of our five-minute flight.

I didn't want to show the whole...

But [clears throat] yes, those were the, the key moments.

And then this is our ground mission.

Um, so the point of ground mission, like you said, is to load and unload our passengers and, and payload as quickly as possible, as well as the banner.

[cheering]

It's a very old book.

Yeah.

I didn't feel the need to reread this one before the movie.

I was like, "I'm good without, without reading the book." Okay, so it's a love story over the years between Catherine Earnshaw and Heathcliff.

If he has a last name, didn't catch it.

[laughs]

Phenomenal color grading.

And just like ...

She's had to reflect on her own part in the relationship, those key moments where she chose to stay with Morgan, even when she knew something wasn't right.

It's so easy to hear my story and be like, "This terrible thing happened to this great person." And to be honest, I have had to reckon with my own inner demons about this.

Like, what parts of me were attracted to a person that needed to be taken care of? I can reflect back on a lot of my early childhood, where to be caregiving and to be codependent in that way were very much rewarded.

So it's not just like, "Wow, this terrible thing happened to me." Truly, it's like I can see what I said yes to in this complicitly.

I can see where I turned an eye away from what I knew in my body was the truth because I didn't wanna lose something I loved, or am embarrassed I didn't leave sooner because I was afraid of what it would look like, and it's true.

We end all of our episodes with the same question: Why did you wanna tell your story?

I didn't want to tell this story ever again.

The thing that made me is knowing that it took me so many years to untangle myself from the shame of not recognizing that as trauma sooner.

She was so flooded with grief for Morgan that the breakup became an afterthought.

I remember feeling so deeply sad because my breakup with Morgan was never about not loving her.

I cared about her so deeply.

The thought of her dying was insane to me and felt so unfair, especially to have this prognosis with her family not being very close.

I was devastated for her.

We were sobbing, and then we went to bed, and I remember holding her, thinking, "No, no, this is like my partner going through cancer.

This isn't, oh, my ex-girlfriend from yesterday." This was someone I love so deeply, dying.

Along the way, they camped in national parks.