Mm

... and coercion, and I could raise our daughter really safely, albeit not in a way that I wanted to.

Um, so I guess processing those kind of emotions and f- and feeling like you can actually articulate them is, um, in public where they might be actually quite difficult for people to hear.

Um, it was a challenge as well because, um, it's one thing to process these difficult feelings and the anger that you feel that he did that to our marriage, and he exposed our child to that kind of violence.

He exposed me to that violence.

I'm angry and grie- but at a funeral where you're meant to just feel sad, um, it feels challenging and it's hard to even explain because, you know, at Andrew's funeral, it was packed to the, the, um, the rafters and most people just thought he was the biggest military hero and an amazing top bloke and, and he was a lot of those.

He was that.

It's the equivalent of the nutrition label on the back of processed foods, isn't it? It's like, "We're just gonna make this real tiny and put it on the back and maybe seal it over." [laughs]