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lost her and so and then I went to an athlete my very first year and yeah it was just a really tough year I was trying to make a run on the national team trying to make a name for myself I was playing professionally in my first year just got married and It was a lot, and obviously my mom was my best friend.

Being an only child, I just relied a lot on her, and I think when I left her after that, I was trying to navigate, who's my person in this sense? Obviously my husband at the time, and when you lose that confidence, it's like, where do you go from here and how do you like navigate life without your mom you know and so not gonna lie I still struggle to this day sometimes and I probably will struggle the rest of my life because it's just it's such a huge thing in my life that I miss and but I know that I mean when she got sick she the first thing she's like you better not be missing a tournament you know like she just was Like my biggest supporter and I just, I play for her and I just, I, yeah, I know.

I don't know if that's what you want to say.

But I think that is something for me that I have always struggled with and continue to.

I love that I love that so much okay so the Olympics are scheduled for 2021 correct is that okay so then can you tell us us who are not Olympians like myself what do you do now like are you in Nebraska are you in your team all together someplace what do your workouts and your practice how does that look right now for you yeah so

I had signed a short season in China, so I got back in January.

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If I were to send a message up to my mom today, I just would hope that I've made her proud.

My name is Jordan Larson, and this is the story of how the most challenging moment in my life made me strong.

I believe I first fell in love with volleyball, I would probably say at age 10 or so.

My parents threw me into a lot of different sports to kind of really try and kind of find the passion.

My mom was a former athlete.

She just always cared about her health.

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Yes, but more importantly, you know, my mom called him, and, uh, you know, we're both really green in the sense of not knowing anything about how any of this works, and he was just incredibly nice and just walked us through the whole process and just...

And that's so important.

Like, just starting with someone who's willing to help is, it's a big deal.

And, uh, so as a, as a graduation present, they bought a four-day editing class for me, which was March of 2016.

So I was in, in my senior year of school, only had a few months left.

Uh, and so leading up to that, I just made it my goal, I'm going to film everything.

It's, yeah.

Have you kind of figured out what you want to do or are you sort of still like, I want to do it

all? Yeah.

You know, it's like I want the best of both worlds.

It's like my dog.

I'm like, I want you part time.

And, you know, maybe sometimes you can, you know, it's probably like having kids, you know, but.

So I'm kind of just dabbling still.

Like how, I don't know, how has the mindset shifted or like, how has your outlook changed? shifted or like, how does your, how's your coaching changed just as like, as you've grown in your game and then seeing like a new generation of athletes come in?