and how you were able to get to a place where you're able to do these things like having a podcast of your own and educating

Yeah.

So the story starts pretty, you know, I grew up into a house filled with trauma.

And as young as four years old, and don't get me wrong, crap happened before four years old, but even at four years old, i was witness to a motorcycle gang trying to murder my mom in broad daylight on the street this motorcycle gang's initiation process and of course this is back in the early 70s the initiation process was to um murder the first woman you see and so my mom was the first person this person saw and attempted to kill her and failed but put her in a hospital for a while but his her four children were in the car watching and so all four of us witnessed this event now i don't remember it my older brothers and sisters do have more of a semantic memory but you know just because you don't remember it doesn't mean your body doesn't remember and your body does And so that would just bring on like the beginnings.

And then it would go from there that I unfortunately also had a mom whose idea of punishment was things like burning her hands.

I mean, she was a violent, she could go from being really loving, fun mom to a violent monster within seconds and then flip back.

And all of a sudden you're supposed to be like playful kid again.

And that's where I'm coming from.