Yeah, have you been able to reconnect with that yourself now? Or is there anything that you do now that supports that, your ancestry?

Yeah, it was massive for me, that reconnection.

I knew there was a part of me missing, like a big part.

And it was that belonging and actually feeling connected.

And because, so my mum was the only sibling of her family that actually stayed in the community.

So her family had come down when she was 15, and she's the oldest child of nine.

Her dad had passed, so her mum was a widow with nine children.

so what did he do for work when he left

But is there anything that you'd like to share about your childhood, any standout moments that you feel like really shaped who you were or are?

I would say probably the two things would be the expectation to work, and the punishment that was part and parcel of just about everything you did as a child.

Um, the expectations on children were extreme.

When I look back now, they basically wanted children to act as adults.

They wanted them quiet.

They wanted them well-behaved.

They wanted them sitting up and attentive.

Yeah.

for a place that

says leave and divorce so and then also 2018 the first public a rest of a sexual predator inside Glorified.

And so across this time, it's like I'm actually stepping back and I'm allowing myself to actually critique Polapa and look, of course, with my husband, we did this all together.

We talked so much.

We like took each other on a journey through our own experiences and our own thoughts.

Then sadly, March 2018, something happened with our 13 year old and it was a sexual assault on our 13 year old.

In our space of my husband and I wanting to be forgiving, wanting to be Christian in our attitudes towards the leadership, we decided that we were going to give them a year so Glorival had always claimed that they hadn't dealt with things like this correctly because they didn't know about them and here they had this live case and we're going to step back and see okay you've always said that it was because you didn't know and that's why you haven't dealt with it correctly of course it didn't take very long a couple of months into it and our daughter became the scapegoat.

Yeah.

Drop your comments and your questions in the chat, and we'll get to those in a few minutes.

Yeah.

Oh, gosh, there's just so many stories that come to mind when I think about being raised by a narcissistic woman.

Uh, one story that I'll tell that comes to mind right off the bat is, um, when I was younger, I was in gymnastics, and I did a round off back handspring back tuck.

My gymna- my gymnasium was very close to where I lived.

It was across the street.

And I landed on my hand like this, and- Yeah.

Did your friends' parents or other adults ever suspect your home life was a wreck and invite you over so you could have a safe haven?

Drop your comments and your questions in the chat, and we'll get to those in a few minutes.

Yeah.

Oh, gosh, there's just so many stories that come to mind when I think about being raised by a narcissistic woman.

Uh, one story that I'll tell that comes to mind right off the bat is, um, when I was younger, I was in gymnastics.

And I did a round off back handspring back tuck.

My gymna- my gymnasium was very close to where I lived.

It was across the street.

Did your friends' parents or other adults ever suspect your home life was a wreck and invite you over so you could have a safe haven?

And why did she get this platform, or how did she get this platform? Was it just the inheritance and then the company?

Yeah.

So m- my dad's company, i- if, like, listeners are in Canada, I'm sure that, you know, if you go to a Safeway right now, you can find Mitchell's meats, like Mitchell's Gourmet Foods.

You could buy, like, bacon.

You could buy ham right now.

Like, that's my... that's the family company.

If you're in the States, like, I would liken my dad's family's company almost to, like, an Oscar Mayer.

And I do wanna talk about how your life changed after your father passed, but I think it's a good time to talk about the things that you found out about your dad's passing, the real story.

Can you walk me through the day you left with one suitcase?

I mean, there were two days I technically, I guess, left.

But the day I left with the one suitcase was I was in Banff, Alberta, which is in Canada.

And I was at our home, which was being foreclosed on.

And I wanted to move to Vancouver.

Actually, I was moving to meet with a... a guy was dating at the time.

But I packed whatever I could fit in this suitcase, and I bought myself a ticket for a Greyhound bus.

you know?

[laughs]

Um, yes, I'm sure a lot of your listeners can relate when I say that, uh, when we come from a background where we relate to this podcast, uh, there's often so much within our childhoods, uh, that it's, it- it's not, like, easy to sum up necessarily.

But I guess, uh, the, the quickest summary would be my life when I was a child, um, was very presented in a certain way-

Um, how did you, how do you think that disconnect affected you as a child?

I mean, I think it affected me in a lot of different ways.

Um, when I was a child, I really wished with all my might that I had nothing material, and I, I honestly would have traded everything that my family had material-wise for a loving home.