what i tell myself didn't you not like any of them

i did i did like them and they were all very wonderful people and i legitimately mean that there was not a the there was one in there Who is not a great person.

But for all the rest of them, I was not a great person.

And that was because I I just couldn't stay single because I was so afraid of of knowing me, if that makes sense.

And so I treated them poorly.

It's really messed up because, like, I would kind of use the relationship as an ego boost, as a mirror back to myself to look good for myself, like that sort of a thing.

And I was in such a need of having validation and confirmation that I was whatever wanted.

Yeah,