Yeah.

Yes.

Oh my God.

It was the day we came home the day after we came home from the sugar farm.

Um, I went in for that consult and I brought my husband and we talked about, you know, what they were going to do for my face.

And then the doctor said to me, it was like, well, what surgeries are we actually doing? And I looked back at Matt and he was like, it's your body.

If this is really what you want, let's do it all at the same time.

decision you ever made

I think bedside care is a whole other thing we could we could get into we could dive down that is not trauma-informed at all in the way like They did it

felt very judgy I felt a lot of shame because I had already felt shame about the decision that I was making to do this surgery like it was something that I really wanted but I was worried about the perception of others and I think that's part of like my journey and my learning of like being confident and the choices that I make and, you know, standing by and understanding the intentions behind my own choices.

And again, you know, standing by my decisions.

And so from that moment, they got me in the next day on December, on January 30th, I had my biopsy.

And on February 2nd, I was sitting in my car.

That was the following Monday.

I was sitting in my car about to go have lunch with a friend who I hadn't seen in a while.

you're 240 and you need a mammogram.

actually- Wait, my baby's birthday is January 7th, so.

Twins.

Okay, sorry.

I was actually going to say that that's not really the start of this story.

It's not like the full like butterfly effect version.

It was- April of 23, right before my son had just turned two.

My oldest had just turned two, and I didn't know yet, but I was pregnant with my second.

Right? Yeah.